Boylet: Mahal mo 'ko? Me: *nods* Boylet: Ano? Di ko marinig. Me: O---o. Ano ba yan ang panget ng lugar tiyaka timing. Boylet: Kung gusto mo ng fairy tale, pumunta ka sa England. Me: Target ko nga si Prince Harry e. Boylet: ...
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You didn’t love her, you just didn’t want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe, she was just good for your ego, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her, because you don’t destroy the people you love. -Grey's Anatomy
You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life, and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land.
But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me, ah my love, ah my own, in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, beloved, and as long as you live it will be in your arms without leaving mine.
I've wanted to tell you for awhile now. i wanted to say it as you reached for a teacup in your kitchen that night we fought about "why we always have to eat chinese food on your floor" and then made-up. i wanted to say it as the moonlight shown in on you as you slept in your bed the first time we made love there. when i felt your heart racing against my chest. in your (room) in spain, when you first saw your roses, even though i wasn't there. but mostly i wanted to say it the last night i saw you, as i held you in my arms looking down at your precious face knowingly looking up at me. still inside you, quiet, motionless, but so inside you. i wanted so badly to tell you that... the words each time graced my lips like an impostor. only to fall away like some great blizzard that was taken out to sea to rain it's fury on the dark ocean, alone, unbeknownst to any hearing. i pray that you can hear them for what they are, feel them for what they are, and not mar them with the knowledge that they stand apart from your ability to reciprocate them. please take them in your heart, feel them with your eyes closed and your soul open for just a moment. my voice speaking them softly in your ear, with a kiss.when you smile, when your head lightly moves to dance, when your tongue finds my lips, when you ramble over a glass of wine, when you sit naked after we've made love, when you act boldly, when you laugh, when you squeeze my hand, when you call my name in a gruff whisper, when your heart races on my chest in a close embrace, when you love me. what i'm sad about is selfish. i'm sad at god's timing, i'm only a man. and as a man i miss you. i miss you terribly. i miss your kiss. i miss your smile. oh, how i miss your smile. but most of all i miss the moment that hasn't happened yet. the moment when you let yourself fall for me. what makes it hard for me is knowing how much you care for me, how much in a way you do love me. how much you would enjoy smiling wryly as you hurled yourself backwards off the cliff, and said "catch me, baby." if i didn't know that, i could make you a villain, me a victim, and soothe myself. but i can't because it isn't the truth. the truth we both know. the truth is "not today". i know you're not leaving (him) for me, and i wouldn't want you to. i would want you to leave him for you. i also know you would never fly a million miles just to see me smile at you. someday maybe, but not today. so i guess i better disappear. i know you'll be o.k. and soon i will be too. and maybe, just maybe,if god so desires, a day will come when as friends we will find ourselves accidentally strolling along the white cliffs of dover, or the mountain rocks of mendocino, or the bonny emerald north of the scottish seaboard, or the glistening harbor of old new york. and from the heights in the stars, amongst the angels whose arms will cradle us, in a moment neither of us was told about, but knew like our oldest happiness. we will look into each other's eyes and know... it is today. it is today. and whether that day is tomorrow, or next week, or next year, or next lifetime. i will finally get to tell you to your sweet face, the face that i will miss more than i could ever tell, that... i love you, i love you, oh, baby, i love you. and you'll smile wryly, close your eyes, say "catch me, baby", and fall.